Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in sicklove's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
7:26 am	whats up now well, im livingin So Cal now. Orange county to be exact. working at Kari Barbas outerlimits dint get married, went to barcelona and returned a broken and crushedman.. but it happens that way sometimes movedout here, and just been traveling and working alot worked in barcelona, dallas, austin, oklahoma city, orange county, anaheim, costa mesa, philidelphia, tuscon, pheonix, tempe, san deigo, upland, and i dont know where else last 10 months. life is ok.. i guess if anyone still uses this thing, or comes sees this page.. you can email me at sicklove666@yahoo.com (Comment on this)
Friday, June 18th, 2004
12:54 am	wow i forgot about thsi thing ill try and do mor e shit here im ok im getting married movin gto Spain in love and stoked :) more later.. praise hell satan, -R (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
12:01 pm	oh yeah i forgot about this place.. im in NYC right now giong to RI to hang people from hooks for a convention, and for some national geographic thing i hear LOTS of traveling in my future it seems (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 25th, 2003
5:02 pm	HELP!! does any one know how to upload a gallery of pics in the diary? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 21st, 2003
11:57 pm	TSD vs. MAYHEM = SAME GAME.. DIFFERENT NAME I think it needs to be addressed more clearly. TSD is NOT dead. Not to me it isn't. Its my fucking family here in Dallas. TSD was always about sharing information and bringing suspension to the masses and responsible dissemination of information about it. Much of this was inspired by frustration of the founding members of TSD when seeking such information. It was also about crass jokes, late night IHOP coffee, lofty ideas and the drive to accomplish them. Shows were a way for us to get attention and to pull off things that we didn't always have the resources to do ourselves. People tend to be dismissive of young upstarts and nobody knows it better than the TSD folks that paid their dues and really proved themselves in the group. Mayhem is just a new name in same game. Sure, many of the people in Mayhem have been part of TSD for years. Many of whom have been occupied by carrying on with their lives. We have grown older and wiser. There are many new people we have met along the way, an awe inspiring group of up and comers that, like us, have the love and the drive to make their ideas happen. This new blood combined with years of experience is, what we all hope will be, the next evolution of modern suspension. We have a new name to reflect that. That is my theory. I am proud of my involvement with both groups. I am just doing my thing to help people safely hang from hooks in new, artistically appealing, interesting, and even beautiful ways. I don't know if I'll ever know how or why this has become such an important part of my life, it just is. I am one of those hard headed old school types. I have been around and seen a lot. I've heard it all, twice. I would rather talk to somebody who is curious and knows nothing about suspension than to anybody else about any thing else. Please forgive me if I get bitchy about what may seem like a small detail. I've been at this a long time and I don't want to come off like an ass, but I will not allow some the dark and frustrating chapters in TSD history to be repeated. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 20th, 2003
2:58 am	aww hell been busy .. lots giong on.. no word yet form ben .. but they ARE into it.. i got his cell if i want to call him. i just hope i didnt scare the GRINDCORE DEATH BAND GOATWHORE!! HAHHHAHHAH that would be such a kicksnatch show work was REALLY busy .. it was good . i had an ENTIRE salon come in because everyone they asked about getting pierced said not ONLY , THE shop to go too .. but ME in particlar.. it was kinda cool kinda makes me feel like i AM diong some thing right.. and people DO value what i do,.. and my skill and craft. still sometimes ya cant help but feel you need 2 do more.. and mayhem is great.. doors are opening for us without even trying .. just need to get it under control, and stay on top my game. luckily i got a cchops69 (better half) to fucking talk sense into my tempramental primadonna artist ass, when i need it. some times you need someone thats like a brother ( ive only known him for like.. i dont know.. 14-17 years? longer? * it was hazy for me back then* but working with someone whose as close to you as a brother, as frustrating as it can be at times.. is exactly what you need, to tell you who it is,.. fuck what ur feeling.. be honest,.. tell you to shut the fuck up.. and think things thru ,..LOGICALLY.... for those that are still reading,. i wouldnt say im short tempered.. id say i DONT have one... i go from fine to RAGIN- FULL ON (like the firehose album *subnote - if ANYONE gets that musical refrence ill shit*) in .5 secs... i think it was all the drugs i did when i was young... HARD drugs...my head is a head of hot wires it seems sometimes..-R (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 17th, 2003
1:03 am	RIP BUDDY one year anniversary.. hard to believe its been one year...miss you lots -R (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 15th, 2003
3:39 am	IM UPDATING ok,.. LOTS giong on.. no update as of late the group has just BLOWN UP... with steve joyner leaving 1/2 of CoRE here (tx) and allen to busy and redirecting suspension stuff to me,,. and MAYHEM (basically TSD under me, not allen- busy fucker),.. thhat leaves US as the PRIMARY texas suspension group. i dont mean ONLY.. there are others . .in this city even.. but they limit themselves. we dontwe turned down a show with melt banana on 6/26 cause of merch not being ready.. BUT are diong the sleepytime show on 7 -18 at EMOS!! got some good stuff planned.. ITS " HOOKTASTIC!!" Pat, Delaney and their lovely bride(s 2 b), moved ot town this week.bbqed.. pics in diary somewhere..plus working at the shop... been busy with ALL the merch stuff for the next few shows ( 3 styles of shirts, plus differnt shirt styles, full color vinyl stickers, buttons, promo packs, dvds etc etc ) i should be *trying* to get some sleep as i have to wake up .. cut down a tree that fell on the jacuzzi , broke the fence and fucked the back yard up during a thrunderstrom we had yesterday... so cut that fix what we can and jethro is coming over (weather permitting) to hooking up the electric and plumbing to the jacuzzi SHITTY!!! and THEN drive to san antonio, and shooot some suspension DV footage for the dvd to come (heh just wait ),. plus to show the GOATWHORE and IMMOLATION guys when we meet with them monday night , for discussions on show in late aug. THEN drive BACK from S.A , and *hopefully* to a relaxing jacuzzi.. .. with my luck,.. itll be raining .. again. oh yeah and this is cause im off!!-R (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 12th, 2003
2:56 pm	last night ZEKE's one of 2 reunion shows here at emos.. KICKED SNATCH!! got some good pics traded shirts with a guy from some band who actually played with the offenders back in 88, and just happened to be the shirt i was wearing nice enough guy.. gave me his NITWITZ shirt (his new band ),.. they are in town playing sxsw nice enough guy. bought me beer and everything.. then we started talking about turbo negro.. and how HUGE they are in Europe and i will be watching them in less than 36 hrs !! YAY ME!! -R (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 1st, 2003
3:27 pm	oh hell,.. well,. bme is down.. or givingme shit.. figuered id fuck with this site a bit had a show last week at emos.. with the lizardman, mr. lifto, and larry the leopard opening up,.. then we did some crazy suspension stuff from flesh hooks(360 roatting knee/back/ waist and 2 knee suspensions). good turn out. someone tellme how to put up pics.. -R (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 9th, 2003
3:14 am	Note to self- learn to use hopefully i can use this as an actual thing to get away and write what i cant on the other thig i use.maybe i shoudl chnagethis name though... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 1st, 2002
4:20 pm	HATE!! BITCHES ABOUND MY DOMICILE (Comment on this)